not sad

today i was reminded that my life is not in balance.
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>>> i learned that gender assymetry may or may not be universal and that rice agriculture may or may not have first developed near the yangtze river, or maybe the yellow river, or somewhere in between. either way it's not important.
>>> reading lisa's european updates i was also reminded that yes, i must go to france, especially with all this talk of southern peasants and intriguing localized cultures along the coast. in the meantime, i do believe that i am quite aimlessly floating around, doing this and that and rushing to finish one thing before another item finds itself on my plate. there really is so much going on, yet i feel that nothing, really, is going on.
>>> but alas there is no time to think about the meaningless of it all. we must invest meaning in what we do, wholeheartedly whether or not we are co-opting to an illusion. because really, i do have to wake up tomorrow at 6:30, and i don't want to feel the consequences for not doing so.

>>> and no, i do not think that it is a sad day for canada.

listening: vusi mahlasela - troubador