just for the sake of it

How marvelous that presidents and governors come to mourn and praise. But in the morning... will words become deeds that meet needs?

I've just watch a clip of Reverend Joseph Lowery speaking at Coretta Scott King's funeral. Preachers are possibly the greatest orators of our time.

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Why always the disconnect? Why so rare the actualization?

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These past few days have been a daze, particularly during and following the reading week-all nighter. Two months after the initial due date, my research paper - 24 hardcopy pages - has been handed in. Although embarrassed and gravely disappointed in myself, I am certainly relieved to have it out of my hands for the time being. The paper has reinforced the notion that I can only get work done if extremely stressed and in a state of great discomfort. A dangerous characteristic at best.

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Everyday I see life passing by me while I watch, still. I realize that I don't appreciate the concept of greatness, nor have I treated honesty with respect. There are too many boundaries built around normative models of conduct; even the rawest of honesties has to find its own channel. And it'll only flow if it's meant to.

Why is reading week so burdensome? Work, all day tomorrow.

listening: david gray - life in slow motion