but what is prison?

this post comes at the re-realization that I have become stone, in the rain and in the sun. i remember times when I could move, with the wind and with the stillness.
this is an apology first and foremost to myself and to the world for my misguided dispositions, my confusion of priorities, my denigration of faith. I can't say that anything is different to make me change my mind, or that my mind is being changed to see things any differently. but I will say that at the core of it all there is so much more than this, and there is where i realize that I don't want to lose you, and I don't want to regret what hasn't been.